A Reason To Rebuild

Blogging is nothing new, not to me, not to many. The fact that I am writing once again is upon request, with a definite goal of embetterment. I wish it wasn't a fact that i have to revert to an old way of thinking, that i didn't lose the alacrity of my old mind. Pathetic, I'm supposed to be taking steps forward, not retracing my steps haha. Oh well, it's for the best. I just don't want to feel that my ability to gain knowledge by deep mental examination had peaked when i was fucking fifteen. I suppose it hasn't. I just feel that my mind is more and more distracted and preoccupied than ever, and it shows apparently.

My girlfriend is the one who suggested i relearn. Revert back and launch forward, i suppose It'll work like a slingshot, so at least I know I'm headed for my goal with haste. She's the one that notices, points it out, makes me realise that I've really lost touch with my own mind. Perhaps ill just read over some of my old writings. Opinionated, sometimes bias, but overall very thoughtful in my opinion. I've never questioned my ability to think, to examine, to learn, but until recently at least. I'm at a greatly distracting point in my life, and it shows.

Well, now that I've gotten a tidbit of my recent fortunes and my reasoning for this blog out of the way, the next writing will be my first solid attempt at rebuilding that sought after alacrity of times past. Let's hope this goes well.