Premonition

I am a believer. I think that we have the ability as natural instinct to keep ourselves safe and prepared. I've always felt that when my mind was at it's most open i can know what's coming next, whether it be something as simple as the next phrase to be uttered out of someones mouth, or in some cases what random face is going to walk in the room. It's an erie feeling when your premonitions are answered so precisely. I don't however have a solid opinion on psychics. I don't quite believe in them, but the supposed abilities that they have are just an insignificant margin of what they front.

As of late I've found myself with a rather repetitive scenario base of a premonition of death, in which I'm left with wealth. I have no idea what this is supposed to mean though. Death is not something i would like to toy around with, even in scenario. It does frighten me to think that maybe this one will come true. With me being on the positive end of the receiving of wealth sends a red flag up in my mind indicative of it being someone very close to me. Which is something I would hate to imagine.

I haven't really lost anyone that close to me ever. I have had my share of a few mourning for beloved people that have passed through my life and into death, but with this thought i feel that it could be someone that will strike me hard. However, when i did scenario the though of a death leading to my personal gain in fortune, i did not feel stricken with negative emotion. Not a stir of remorse, sorrow, grief, nothing, just gray. That was my only reassurance that maybe this is not to be. Maybe I'll be able to get away from this one.