Fondness< Dependancy< Addiction

So my mind has been all over the place lately. I guess I just haven't been in the best mood lately. I feel like I've been making a lot of change lately. It's uncomfortable, but I'm sure I'll get used to it. I just don't know what to really do about it. I feel like every day it's a new reason to see you frown and it just makes me think that that's not changing anytime soon. So much worry and sadness, it just gets to me I suppose. I just get lost in my head wondering how I can make her happy, but it seems that even that upsets her.

I don't seem to be embracing this change very well. I miss my friends and having something to do all the time. I miss my family as well. Regardless though I assure that I am happy. I like being where I am solely because of who I am with, which I'm sure some people would think I'm an idiot for that reason. I don't think so though. Then again I am kinda unsure of how I feel about not really having a time to feel alone anymore. I know I could go out, but where's there to go? Who's there to see?

I suppose we all need our escapes. Dependency is something that is developed with time, addiction is a strong form of dependency, but what good is exchanging one for the other? After all addictions are things that you're generally suppose to end. So I think I'll put some consideration into renewing my recently cut off addiction in order to ensure that my highest priority in life doesn't end up the same way.